And so we reached the top

I cannot express the view from the top in words JSABIFALIONQCANQUIWQA
Especially when i know i climbed 40 damned storeys up
ALL
BY
MYSELF
Oh man the pride. It's one of the rare moments i actually feel proud of myself ✌

Had a talk with Gabriel after the CJ match.
The CJ match was good, but I was disappointing.
Should have led the team to play for the match, instead of selfishly thinking that my action of staying out will not affect others. I didn't have the confidence, i felt that i wasn't ready. But i forgot,
The team didn't have it too.
And i forgot it was my role to spark it up.
I can't say how bad i felt throughout the whole first half of the match darn it. Part of the reason why they stayed out was because i didn't move.
I didn't even dare to meet Mondster's Gabriel's Nicholas' or Regina's eyes.
But after that half, Gabriel came up, and gave us a good whack.
Regina too.
And after that, I'M ALL FIRED UP HAHAHA!
The match was good, a grey woman freaking dared to drive me in circles.
Damn her face is forever etched in my head now!!!!

Then at the end of the match, Mondster mentioned a few people who are commendable.
And they are really commendable.
And then he mentioned me.
Even though i know i didn't perform my best at all.
I know he knows it too.
At one point i even thought someone whacked my head then i was hallucinating lol
"Jiehui, you are just a little short of it.. Or else you'll make it"
No head, no tail.
I don't think he knows what is 'it' himself HAHAHA!
Mondster.. He's really kind like that yah? :')

Then taohuey with the girls ❤
Otw home with sofy,
GOT SCARED BY MONDSTER.
HE APPEARED SUDDENLY AT THE BUS STOP BEHIND ME
AND I FREAKING SCREAMED.
So thankful the old lady behind us never faint ah!
AIYOOOOO!!!!

Then went home, returned Gabriel's call.
Talked about authority-complexity issues.
"You're doing a very good job as a secretary alr. Have more confidence in yourself."
That's what he said. But.
I know that this is not my best.
I'll keep trying.
I'll try, till i cannot try anymore.

Mondster, Gabriel, Regina, EugeneL, my girls..


I'm really glad i came into frisbee, and met these wonderful people ❤

And what i lack, is discipline.
I WILL FIGHT