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Cried on the bus today. It came in waves.
I can't bear with it any longer. I rly don't know how long more i can last.
The thought of us separating at the end of the year is killling me.
Today all three of us were at the same bus stop, and all three of us were taking different buses.
All, to different destinations.
It's so fucking painful. So damn painful.
My heart is in pieces.
Why. Why the fuck the school has to retain so many people.
They are improving, they are freaking improving.
SO TELL ME WHY THE FUCK MUST YOU GUN THEM DOWN WHEN THEY FINALLY SAW SOME LIGHT.
I don't understand. Academic results can't show anything.
It's not always that academic results reflect the amount of hard work and sweat that they actually put in.
Then why must you condemn them like this.
Why.
Knn why.

Today we had exco meeting. Then we're talking about the size of the team.
How we might need to recruit more members
Because some of us will leave.
Then eugene looked at me straight in the eye, and told me.
"Tiu don't think can alrdy"
"If he retaining he's going private"
"If ward retain we set liao"
"Ward leave i also go le"
I know that. I know all of it.
But i don't wna hear you. I don't wna hear you at all.

"Then what about us? What about everything we've been through?"

When i saw tiu, holding back the tears was all i can do.
Feeling so terrible today.

I rly. I rly don't want them to leave.
"Then what about me? What am i supposed to do?"
"I believe that i'll miss you"

Help them. Help me.
Cause i'll be lost without you. Without you both.
Please. おねがい.
I swear i'll go vegan for a month if all of us are alright.
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